Idols are other People

The Lord is deeply grieved when His blessings become idols in our hearts.

Think about that, is that true of you? I’d imagine it is of all of us.

I know one big blessing I have made an idol in my heart: popularity. It’s odd to even write that word because I’ve never cared about being a part of the “cool” crowd…seriously, ask anyone I went to high school with. But, I have discovered how I have allowed people to become so much bigger than the Lord in my heart.

Yes, I feel deeply that I can only rely on the Lord, that I have no other lover but Him, and yet, my flesh has won out for so long that this idol is not easily gotten rid of.

I spend so much time worrying over words I’ve said to someone, wondering if my friends even like me. I’ve realized recently that I haven’t truly been comfortable in a friendship for a long time because I read into everything. If they don’t text me, don’t initiate hanging out, don’t smile at a joke, etc., I begin to worry that I am an idiot and maybe that friendship is weaker than I thought.

Really, I’ve made people my idols. And the Lord blesses us with out friendships and relationships. We do not get them on our own. He is in control. He gives and takes away as well. I know He is the only one I need to please, but my flesh argues against that.

So, here I am and I am causing the Lord grief. Thank the Lord for His grace and love.

Silence

Psalm 119:81-84

My soul faints with longing for your salvation, but I have put my hope in your word.My eyes fail looking for your promise; I say, “When will you comfort me? Though I am like a wine skin in the smoke, I do not forget your decrees. How long must your servant wait?

Sometimes people will tell you that if you are not hearing, feeling, or seeing God in some way, you are doing something wrong, or keep seeking and He will show you.

Does the writer of this Psalm sound like they aren’t trying hard enough to seek the Lord? Their soul is fainting, their eyes failing….clearly they are being faithful in their seeking of the Lord.

So why hasn’t he gotten his answer? Will he ever get it?

Perhaps, perhaps not. Sometimes the Lord is just teaching you through a process. He may not answer that question. He may seem silent, He won’t always feel close!

Don’t let someone tell you that you are doing something wrong if God seems silent in your life. If you are pursuing Him, pouring over the word, talking to Him, you’re doing all God asks for.

You can be frustrated with silence, the unanswered questions. Don’t be frustrated with yourself, because you are not in control of God, only your own faith.

So respond with with , “not forgetting his decrees”, “putting your hope in the word”, and “continuing to seek Him” no matter how long it takes.