Let it Go

Dear younger me,

How do you let go of a crush?

I’m still trying to figure that one out. When I like someone, I like them for years…because I don’t fall easily. On one side this is good because I am loyal and I certainly know my own heart and feelings. On the other hand, this can make life miserable…. wondering so many ifs.

As you age, you crush on far fewer people, you’ll spend more of your time serving the Lord and loving on others with no holding back. One day, you’ll get hit though. A guy will seem to show up on your radar and because of your imagination and innately good desire to be married, it’ll consume you. I wish I could give you advice. All I know is the truth. The truth is, God controls your story. God can bring about your love story. This means, you don’t have to worry over every interaction, worry over the timing of everything, you don’t have to worry about getting the guys attention, because God has the perfect timing, God gave you the holy spirit to lead you, and God can easily work in that guy’s heart to pursue you.

I wish there was a medicine to take away the nerves and the pain, but truth be told…I think that just takes practice and discipline. If you want God to be your total focus, then keep praying, keep speaking that. It may take time, but God certainly honors you for wanting such a wonderful thing. Don’t worry about the guy. God can worry about that. Allow God to work His magic if it is His will.